Life's little up and downs

My mom ask me to share how faith got me through life's little ups and downs so I thought it was blog worthy.

I have always tried to look life right in the face and shout bring it on I can take it!!! My life's motto's are many but one was if you aren't making dust you are eating it. Another was how much can I get away with and still go to heaven.....then life happened.

Before I knew it I was married with a baby on the way. The day they (the doctor) put that little girl in my arms was very humbling and for the first time in my life I had no idea what to do. When they were sending me home with her I felt really strong they should send someone to check on me, but you know they don't do stuff like that. At that you are on your own, well not really you have your family and your faith. I think the only way to learn is to experience it, so yes you can say I always learn the hard way, and I am always making some really stupid choices. My parents have loved me through it all, and never said I told you so, they are just there to pick us up when we fall. We have also had some trials come our way that I felt were just not fair, and what in the world did I do to deserve this. It took me awhile but I did turn to my Heavenly father for help. It is really hard when you are in the middle of it all to see the big picture because you are in the middle of the whirling wind, and at time you can barely see it to the next minute. I think the hardest lesson I had to learn is one step at a time, one minute at a time, one day at a time. What we do with the next minute matters more that what we did with the last. The saying goes hind site is 20/20. If I had it to do all over again I don't think I would change a thing. It still hurts a lot to see my parents hurt, but I am glad they let me see it. It killed me to watch my daughter go through 2 near death experiences, and say if given the choice she would choose to stay here and go through it. At one point late at night or early in the morning as I was helping her to stand up we both started singing

"If you're going through hell
Keep on going, don't slow down
If you're scared, don't show it
You might get out
Before the devil even knows you're there"

All I can say is just keep on going, write down your daily experiences, read your scriptures, keep praying and you will have the strength to see it through. You won't know when your on the up side until you are on the way back down, but just keep track of the daily triumphs. I remember one day when I noticed little tiny pebble shadows on my walk, and that was the only good thing of that day....so now my motto is remember the pebble shadows, family is the most important, and everything else will fall into place. I know with out a doubt I couldn't have gotten this far in life (4 kids and still married) if it hadn't been for faith and knowledge that it wouldn't be easy but it would be worth it, and one day I will be with my Heavenly Father again and I imagine it sitting with my dad, and having him call me one of his own. He knows who you are, and he loves you for every day that you get up and keep going.

And he does it again

So yes here we have it a very very happy baby. I just fed him, he had a good time eating, and he was just sitting in his chair playing with his buddies. I was sitting here reading email. Everyone is gone but me and Edward. I Just got done reading Jean Marie's amazing email when he starts crying. I turn around and pick him up. I knew he would have poppy pants, and I knew I would need to change him. He hadn't had a blow out since July 4 after the 5k, only to be followed by Sawyer. I thought that maybe since I had been feeding him sold foods the blow outs were over. Boy was I surprised. The really funny part was, I turned him around to look at the damage, then turned him back around and he just started laughing at me. What a funny kid!! Then comes the question....When does one justify tossing an outfit?